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LIFE UPDATE- 2025

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Hello, guess what? I went off the radar again hahahahaha. Okay, jokes aside, too many things happened these past two years. I already finished my third year of my degree (going for practical next semester!). Time flies so fast, man… Just the other day, my father sent me to college for my first year, and now I’m entering my final year. I’m sure he’d be proud of me for making it through. So, like an old story, my friends come and go. I lost some, I gained some. Actually, I had a realization—in the end… all those big emotions I felt at those times don’t really matter. But they did help me grow and learn about myself. Along the way, I’ve dealt with insecurities, self-doubt, and loneliness. It feels like I’m stuck in the same cycle. At one point, when I felt like I had no escape, I pushed myself again and again. I learned so much from YouTube about mindset and all. Learning the science behind it fascinated me so much that I kept digging into those kinds of content. Life feels different now ...
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Hello There, Again. It Has Been Too Long- Life Update 24th May 2023

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      It has been a year, from my latest post. It's kinda embarrassing to see me 'updating' after a year and then 'disappear' again for a whole another year lol. It has always been like that. It's not that I don't like doing this anymore, I just do not have the consistency and the will to. But I guess, as long as I am still interested in writing, well, that should be enough. Making this as a hobby will takes too much time. So maybe in this post, I will try to keep myself in check.      Firstly first, now I am studying Education in Visual Art. Teacher to be? InsyaAllah. I have always wanted to be a teacher since my parents and sibs involved in education field. But my dilemma during school years was, how can I be an art teacher? Then fate take me to Diploma in Fine Arts then with a leap of faith I changed my course to education in degree. I do not think I have the soul to be a fine artist. With some motivation in me and some hope for pursuing what I thin...
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UPDATE - I'M BACK AFTER OVER A YEAR (and some explaination)

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Okay, before anything... urm, Assalamualaikum and greetings. Ehem My last entry is on December 2020,  Appreciation Part 2  , then I just left my blog for over a year and now it's 2022, I have some kind of burnout during that year, you know, Covid and stuff. In my last entries, I was in second semester in my diploma, now I am already in first semester of my bachelor degree 👀.  I didn't visit my blog as well and to my surprise, my entries regarding Fine Art diploma course got hundreds of views! T-T I did NOT expect that, and there was a comment they wanted to contact me to ask me a question but I did not reply for the reason I abandoned this blog. I feel so bad actually, so I put my instagram username on my profile just in case there are people that want to reach me out.  How am I? How are you? What I have been doing? To put it simply, I focused on my studies and each semester break I only lounge around not doing anything after each semester's burn out. There were too...
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Appreciation (Menghargai): Part 2

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      Actually, when I wrote the first part of this topic, I knew what I want to talk about in part 2.. it's just... it has been four months since that because I delayed it for so long and already forgot what I want to write. So many things happened in my life to the point I don't really have the mood to start writing again, until now. All in all, please bear with me if I'm writing nonsense in the end huhu.      I wanna start this second part with appreciation for people around us, I know I have some personal reasons for the topic but I can't remember anymore. First things first, there may be some of you that always thinking you don't need other people, you are a lone wolf,  people disappoint you. Well, sometimes I do too. But after giving some thinking (and a bit of experience) , I do think we actually need people around us. Even in religion and science, humans are a social being. Basically you can't live in this world alone, even if you really believ...
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Appreciation (Bersyukur) : Part 1

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     If the topic is about appreciation, there are too many aspects that can be talk about, whether it's between humans, or our own sense of appreciation. I think I can break it to different parts. This is part 1 tho. You might think, who actually have time to think all of this unnecessary things? Hahaha I am. It can't be helped, I tend to think deep (sometimes overthink too lol) and this is how I release my thoughts.       (Disclaimer: this is purely based on my personal perspective and it is subjective. Every faults in expressing opinion is from myself and all the good things comes from Allah SWT, InsyaAllah)     Have you ever come across some quotes, articles or even someone on the internet that talks about 'appreciation' (including me huhu) but you never actually get it, or even feel it? You're not alone. I was in that kind of position too when I was having a dark time. 'Appreciate what you have', 'not all people in this world have the pr...
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Diploma Fine Arts: Sem 1 aka Part 1 (Uitm Lendu Melaka)

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Assalamualaikum and welcome, this time I intended to write about my experience, what we learn (I think I'll talk about this more) as a fine art student in UiTM Kampus Alor Gajah, Melaka. As you guys might know, before we start our first sem the part 1 student (yes, uitm called the student 'part' and not 'sem') will face interim month where we complete the registration, got our college and room, class, timetable and so on. There's this infamous thing where in uitm Malaysia-wide called MDS week aka Minggu Destini Siswa xD. This MDS is usually filled with talks about uitm, the student portal yada yada (but it's important tho so don't skip any useful information).  Whether this MDS will be a hell or a fun program will depend on the uitm itself. Alhamdulillah all the PM (fasilitator) in uitm Alor Gajah all are very nice and always concern about us, "siswa siswi okay? siswa siswi ada yang sakit tak? siswa siswi dah lapar ke?" okay that las...
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In The Darkness of The Night

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Assalamualaikum WBT, hello and hi to dear readers. Tonight (by the time I'm writing this) I want to talk about something that I face since I don't know when. Have you ever staying up late at night, doing something maybe like your work, assignments, games, tv shows, or just lying in bed blinking, staring on the ceiling, waiting to fall asleep? Then suddenly you feel your heart beating faster, unexplained emotions, runs through your vessels, your heart suddenly feel extremely heavy, your head hurts, and on the verge of tears, even though you're may or may not having any problems at the time.. ?  Because I do. All the time. I'm just thinking, maybe that's why Allah SWT,; The Creator, create night for us to rest? I've seen this one video about Surah Ad-Dhuha (I really recommend this video, you can search on youtube ' Makna surah Ad-Dhuha') , and on verse 2 ; translates to: "And [by] the night when it covers with darkness,"  ...
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